Anyway, I told Anis this earlier and I'm just going to repeat it again. I hate today. I slept at about 4am yesterday because I got caught up reading and I had to wake up at 10am today. I haven't had much sleep for a week now. My mom woke me up shouting (like usual) and all of us (Mama, Abah, Along and I) went to Seremban to visit my grandparents and my aunt. Usually I'll hate them for bringing me there because I don't really like it but I have not met my grandparents and my aunt for few months already so I thought I should go see them before one of them die. It was so awkward and quiet during the ride there. Along, Mama and Abah did most of the talking (again, as usual) I hate it that I don't have anything to talk about with them. It's like I'm not apart of the family. Like I am just a guest sitting at the back sit. I started getting bored so I opened my book and read, which was stupid of me because I get car-sick easily. My head started to spin so I decided to sleep.
During lunch, my family and I were arguing about what phone I should buy once I get my salary. I want to buy a blackberry because it is the only phone that I can go online unlimitedly and it's price is affordable to me. My parents and my sister insisted me to buy Android which I loathe. I just don't like it so much. The phone itself is annoying. I wanted an iPhone but I guess it's just too expensive. I really don't understand them. It'll be my phone so why would they care?
After lunch, my mom sat beside my grandma and they started talking. My grandma told my mom about how she's seeing ghosts everywhere all the time in her house. My parents are really worried about this. So am I. It is really creepy for me since I really don't like scary stuffs. I hope she's fine and I hope that this isn't a sign of that her life is going to end soon.
I was getting really annoyed with everyone because all of them talked about things that I can never understand; politics. So I went to my aunt's room and opened my book. I was reading until it was time to go home. On the way back, the same thing happened all over again. They were talking and I just couldn't relate to anything and I slept. Did I mention how hot it is today? Such a mood killer.
Basically, I can't get these thoughts off of my head: Why can't I talk to my parents and have normal conversations with them? Is my grandma going to be alright? Why can't I be more like my sister? Today really messed up my mind. I hate today.
Notice how I blog differently? This is what happens when you read too much of Perks of being a wallflower in a day. I've finished reading it and I just can't wait for the movie!
Tykah.