You know the feeling of being so lonely yet you're so happy?
I bet you dont.

So guess what, I confessed to P the other day. And it didnt go so well. I totally embarassed myself and now its all awkward between us. I guess I learnt my lesson and that is to NOT listen to anyone and dont ever confess until you die forever alone :-) K maybe I took it too seriously. It wasnt that bad. I expected it to be that way so I wasnt all crying and cutting myself out. It amazed me how calm he was. I guess he figured it out? Yeah. On the other hand, I cant believe how shallow I am to even think he'll be with me. WTF was I thinking? He has a kind and genuinly clever girlfriend and me? NOT SO. Sometimes I think I have nothing to be proud of. I'm so.. dull.

I dont have anything to say about school. Its just the same. But the new kids though, they're like bazaarly stupid. They didnt even respect the seniors. I mean some of them do, but please, who the fuck do you think you are?! I know you're rich and all but seniors are fucking seniors okay. Ugh spoiled brats.

AND LET ME TELL YOU THIS SHOCKING NEWS. Azureen's shifting school. TO PUTERI TITIWANGSA. Ok I dont know where that is but all I know is that school was Shahira Khamsan's school. Lol its so funny to think about it. Sha is now at Azureen's old school and she is now at Sha's previous school. Anyw, I'm still in denial though. Of course, I cried like a kid who lost his mom at the mall when I found out that Azureen's last day was on that day, WHICH we didnt know, at all, until night. Right, we didnt even got to say goodbye or cry together. It was just so sad. But I guess she's way happy now, despite the fact that she has always wanted to be with her chinese friends and not in an islamic school. We miss you Azureen, you know that :(

I'm so not in the mood for anything now. I just want my life back, please. I think I'm back at becoming the old hatred me, am I right Ameer? :/ Oh well, guess I'll have to watch my steps from now on.


Head filled with the fact that I'm useless,
Tykah